It’s been 6 years since I began the inner journey.
Uncovering myself. Part by part.
Letting go of layer after layer.
Layers of societal conditioning, family conditioning, and the constant need for external validation.
Letting go of triggers.
Letting go of painful past experiences that lived within me.
Letting go of others’ ideas of what’s wrong and right.
While I am still affected by my past conditioning,
There is also some contact with my internal compass,
My internal navigation system, my own values, needs, and wants.
Recently, when I was taking a slow walk at the end of a busy day. I heard something inside of me scream, “Don’t abandon me”.
Here is a plea I heard from my internal self:
Don’t betray me.
Don’t say yes when you mean no.
Step away when you feel you have to.
Feel all the feelings that arise.
The good and the unpleasant.
Express your emotions.
It’s okay if you feel sad, angry. They are all parts of me.
It’s okay if others don’t accept it,
All I ask is you don’t forget to accept it! Please.
Don’t do things that don’t feel true to you.
Just to get validation from others,
Or to fit in and be accepted.
Don’t abandon me.
Take up space when you feel the urge to.
Speak your mind, share your values.
Even if it conflicts with others.
Dance! Even if it embarrasses others.
Don’t forget me.
Remember to check-in.
Remember to look into my eyes when you look in the mirror.
Remember to spend some alone time with me.
Do things that fill me with joy.
Do things that feel aligned.
Engage in activities that feel fulfilling.
Don’t keep running away from me.
Stop. Slow down.
How can we connect if you are always in a rush?
Take slow walks with me.
Sit quietly with me.
Listen to my inner cry.
Listen to my wish to sing, to move, to self-express.
Stay connected to me,
And I promise to guide you
I promise to take you in the direction that helps you fulfill your purpose.
I’ll bring you experiences that get you in touch with this intensely rich life,
Experiences that make you feel like the whole ecstatic universe is dancing inside of you!
Stay connected to me. That’s all I ask.
